Some of the most perplexing traits I’ve come across lately…how one can become so complacent, and not unobservant but utterly oblivious to the conditions they live in due to what I can guess is either laziness, or an inability to own up to any confrontation whatsoever…what the hell?
What does it take for you to respect the people you live with, realizing the place is not sanitary for other people?
You can’t own up to responsibility. You have no respect for other people in your sorry excuse for a home. You don’t even have the backbone to confront people when management steps in, and don’t show up for two days.
You fuck with my living situation to the point where I am concerned that I can be told to leave tomorrow, you lose my respect.
The work events, the festivals, all my plans I missed this weekend—I’ll get over it. There will be other fancy parties and festivals in the future. Not a priority.
The security of my living situation I no longer feel—I can’t get over it. If I could afford to leave I would have a long time ago. But I can’t, and I’ve been riding this out cleaning when I can and putting up with your childish neglect.
I found the crying point of this week: cleaning and bleaching the bathroom, and wanting to cry because many places are going to take a second cleaning, it’s that bad.
New day. Same awful people, but I’m fortunate to have another day to get shit done. Another day to get shit done as in not do household chores, but more so read books all day and avoid people.
So. That morning and early afternoon happened. I’m now going to spend the rest of the day inside and avoid face to face contact with people because one more rude person and I will lose it. If you are not an item in my room, say the book I am reading or the pieces of art I’ll be framing and hanging, it’s not happening.
I’m somewhat sad tonight, perhaps I’m mistaking some of it for pain and exhaustion.
Then I remembers Sons of Anarchy is tomorrow night, and I feel better. It’s making the promise of tomorrow and another physically rough day look shinier.